I've finally got a nice working whizzo computer ( Read more... )

I have an appointment with my Scary Brain Care Consultant next week and my brain is already beginning to stay up all night and churn through scenarios and my psychological issues and how they fit in along with the hard-core caffeine addiction which may be masking my pain levels ( Read more... )

I continue to be.  Just not here right now.  It may be the Depressing Depression again.  I'm just not trying to think about it too much.

Nothing much going on here. Seem to be falling into the sleep/ do stuff/ sleep during afternoon/ wake up/ have no clue what to do/ go to bed pattern again. This is not good as it is how my "downs" start and I have enough depressing health/benefits/work stuff without adding the depressing depression to the list.

The difference is between ( Read more... )

I'm alive ( Read more... )

So. Yes. Uhm ( Read more... )

I'm currently trying to avoid EVERYTHING. I have a new benefit claim form and they have cut most of the questions which apply to me, videlicet Chronic Pain, Extreme Meds, Mental Health and general Functionality. They don't have a box that fits "tends to go to sleep during day because a) too tired and b) awake hurts" or "has tried five tons of ( Read more... )

I'm just having one of those horrible "I think too much" days courtesy of the depressing depression. Besides the realisation that I was falling apart at university for much longer than I ever wanted to know. How much opportunity I should have had never happened, how much normal that never happened. Why I am a 28-year-old back living her 14-year- ( Read more... )

Today, the depresseds are in and partying with the anxiety thing ( Read more... )

I'm all closed-down claustrophobic and uncommunicative lately.

Uncommunicative because my attempts at communication end in confusion and fear and pomegranates.

Forgetting words like "wardrobe with food in" and other slight problems.

That and being plain wibbly and scared and fed up with this nonsense.

And how my life is now measured in coffee ( Read more... )